I am like you. We were provided with bodies that grew and grew, and then, grew some more. We stood towering over the boys who picked teams for kickball in the fifth grade. We subconsciously learned poor posture, slumping over to appear shorter to fit in to our pack of friends. Our tall girl bodies are ignorant (or, unconcerned) of the statistic that the average American female height is much shorter.
The pre-teen years were a comedic display of confusion for a tall girl. A constant reminder of “Don’t worry, your body will catch up with your feet.” There we stood, with full sets of braces, stiff bangs (so heavy with Aquanet hairspray, they could survive nuclear warfare), flat chests, and lanky frames. A raunchy entrance into the world of adolescence.
As typical teenage girls, we cared about fitting in. We would attempt to ignore the height factor but when friends would remark that they finally hit the triple digits in weight, we internally wondered about obesity. We were in the 100+ club years before they were creeping 85. Our hearts cringed when we overheard the boys describe tall girls as “beasts”. Was that us? It required a rethink of our favorite Disney movie, Beauty and the Beast, because we no longer identified with Belle, but more so, the hairy, huge monster!
I see you when I tap that familiar icon to learn what is new in our social realm.
You take a deep breath and begin your newsfeed scroll.
What will you find today that will suck your soul?
Leave you feeling empty.
It’s like a drug, that you hope will scratch your itch.
You see an image of two smiling kids, playing with their father.
“They have such a happy life.”
Next comes a display of Pinterest creations, a beautifully decorated dining room for a minor holiday.
“I wish I had time to do that.”
A woman’s amazing physical transformation of tighter abs, and a rounder tush.
“My body will never look that good.”
You scroll on, mindlessly..uncontrollably.
The next couple is in Thailand.
“I wish we had that kind of money.”
A plate of dinner, with a description of ingredients and directions you didn’t ask for.
“Why do they think I care?”
Then comes the pregnancy announcement, the one you so desperately long for.
“I can’t bear to look at this anymore.”
Here comes a political rant, full of anger and unsolicited calls to action.
“Do they know what it’s like to be me?”
Here is the image of a woman, revealing nearly her entire naked body to the world.
“Could she ask for more attention?”
After you’ve exhausted yourself with these thoughts, you ruminate the above. You are spiritually exhausted. Your spirit has been swept out from under you. Your people looks at you quizzically. What’s wrong with her?
You then fall into a deep sleep and it becomes clear.
The women with the smiling kids and husband.
She is battling the urge to hide under the covers.
The mother who decorated her dining room.
She wonders if she is a worthy mother.
The one posting her beautiful, changed body.
She feels worthless.
The couple on the special trips.
They don’t smile at each other at home.
The dinner describer.
She is crawling out of massive debt.
The woman with the pregnancy announcement.
She’s scared out of her mind.
The angry politician.
Nobody asks for her opinion.
The woman with the naked body.
She’s never been told “I love you.”
The social media scroll is a deceptive prayer of asking others to care. An age of hyper connectivity to each other’s personal worlds. A false connectivity. We tell ourselves it’s okay to judge that person. Meanwhile, we fail to see our neighbor nearing collapse.
Let us answer the hidden prayer. Let us be bold to act. Let us repair the connectivity of humanity. Let us not examine one another’s story from a distance view, but become a part of it. The emptiness will remain until we reach for one another. For by healing others, we heal the soul.
I have heard people say that once they surrendered, they found peace. Whether they surrendered to their truth, a higher power, the need for help — their lives profoundly changed. I would listen to these testimonies and be inspired and happy for them but I had trouble understanding. I had not yet identified a moment in my life that felt worthy of this description. Honestly, I didn’t think it sounded like much fun. The word. Like we must give up a fight, our fight.
Then, it happened. I was sitting alone in church. As the weekly message ended, anyone was invited to walk to the front of the room where two people stood up every week, ready to share a moment with anyone willing. No pressure, no expectations. Just a moment in time.
“Prayer warriors” I called them silently because I have noticed a trend – nobody seems to ask for their prayers. Faithfully, they show up every week. They stand in front of a crowd of people. People that are deeply hurting human beings that are dealing with life crises and pain. Death, divorce, drugs, despair. Yet, I see nobody going to ask for help. They are warriors to me. They fight on with little or no motivation from the crowd, myself included.
Then, my time came to ask for help. I could not ignore it. God doesn’t seem concerned with keeping me comfortable but more so in making sure I grow.
It came to me during our time of reflection. Some call or communion. Some call it meditation. I call it a time that God is saying “Child, I know what’s on your heart. Tell it to me so I know that you trust me.”
It pulled me to the prayer warriors standing at the bottom of the stage at the end of the service. I noticed a familiar face and mentally panicked. I changed course, immediately diverting to busy talk– logistics of neighborhood group and meeting times. It was as if identifying a person that knew me stopped me from reaching for God. The back of my mind remained present in my pangs—my hopes.
I took the easy road, so fearful to reveal my soul’s yearnings to strangers. Brothers and sisters of God, yes, but strangers who can judge and laugh and say that may never happen. Perhaps, more so, fear that if I say it out loud, it will never happen. So, I stifled it. I didn’t have others to blame– I couldn’t use their presence next to me as an excuse to not bring my soul to God.
I stared this man directly into his eyes and slowed my speech, appearing thoughtful. I was careful in my responses. His job, no, what he volunteered to do was pray for any need. Ask we discussed logistical chatter, I continued to fight the internal urge to ask him to please pray for me.
Please pray for me, brother. I’m hurting in this area and I need God and I need you to pray for me. I need help.
But I didn’t say that. I remained composed. We finished our conversation. I felt like I had just dipped my toe into a toddler pool instead of swimming freely in the ocean of spirituality. I left feeling like a surface faced liar. God already knew what I was bringing to him. He needed me to just give it to him. Just give it to him.
“Why am I weak?” I ask only myself.
I heard: “You are scared of being vulnerable.”
I decide to overcome this fear. The next time I am in service, I am going to the front. I am going to ask for help and I don’t care who sees me.
It’s not like it’s a big thing – geez — you walk a few steps and say a few words. You can do this. Do you know how many people who attend spiritual gatherings that need other people to pray for them? Why aren’t they up there asking for help? Maybe they are afraid, like you. Maybe you need to help them by helping yourself.
The next Sunday, I am worshipping. Singing a song about courage and being known before even leaving the womb. My heart begins to pound, my palms sweat. I see the prayer warriors return to the bottom of the stage. Inviting me.
“How can I get out of this?” I wonder.
“I already know what you are to do.”
I took a breath and took a step. I’m shaking as I walk to the bottom of the stage. Perhaps, it’s the set up, I think. Like my troubles are on display for everyone to see. To critique. It is time to stop caring about that. It is time to focus.
I ask the two kind strangers “Please pray for me.” Before I can get anything else out, it happens. I start to cry. It is scary and foreign. They are the kind of tears that hit like rushing rapids, pushing me quickly into a place I’m not sure I want to be. Swimming out in that massive ocean. I’m out of the wading pool. Ultimate surrender. Please pray for me. That’s all I need.
And they do. We hold hands, the three of us. The woman’s grip is warm and embracing, wrapping me like a blanket. The man’s is strong and steady, calming my trembles. They pray different words but they mean the same thing. They all mean the same thing. Give us love, give us hope, give us healing. When we finish, they look at me for more. That’s all I have. That’s all I need. I thank them, grab a tissue, and walk out of the room.
I think about what happened. It takes a directed, bold effort to surrender, I realize. I will relearn it. It should keep happening as life keeps happening.
Whatever the need, surrendering by saying it out loud, exposes our hearts. Exposes our desires, our pain, our dreams. Now we feel transparent. Targeted, maybe. Like the new kid in junior high school that wears the wrong shoes in front of the popular girls. Primed for attack.
However, I wasn’t attacked. I was safe. I had surrendered in my safe space. I think our culture views the definition of surrender as weak and sometimes, shameful: To submit to an authority, cease resistance. Sometimes, that’s a good thing. There is a time for everything. Life circumstances come and go, like the seasons. Our ability to adapt and grow with these changes will directly impact what life is willing to give us back.
Enriching experiences. Strong relationships. Peace. Love. Faith. Hope.
Maybe you have something you need to lay down, off your heart. Maybe you don’t. But the time will come. I hope, when it does, you can be courageous and say “I might be scared, but this is worth it.” Then, take that step. Just breath and take a step. We are only free when we surrender. Give it away to receive peace.
I ran into a friend following the lesson of surrender that I had learned. She is pleasantly corralling our kiddos in the nursery. Her presence is comforting. I walk up to the counter to claim my son. My eyes are glistening and she looks at me, concerned.
“Are you okay?”
“Yes, thanks. I just finally asked for prayer. I don’t know why it was so hard.”
“It feels good, doesn’t it? Just letting go.”
It really does. It is well with my soul.
When your partner suggests the idea, try your absolute best to barter for an alternative adventure. Use their favorite meal, sex, voting for their choice politician, anything. If this doesn’t work, beg not to go. If you don’t know how to beg, consult with your toddler.
(Side Note: Kind sir, it is advisable you recommend alternative options to the young family that looks as if they may burst into tears – all 3 of them – before you. Such as the fact that if they waited around for one hour, over five sites would open up.)
I was scheduled for a quick three-and-a-half-hour meeting in our nation’s capital, just one week before we elect our next president of the United States. This election has caused personal angst, communal stress, and a world, it seems, that has gone mad. People are behaving in a way that resembles the trespasses I see among children in my kiddo’s two-year-old classroom.
You know how that looks. One kid is contently playing with a toy (their choice candidate, if you will). Another kid doesn’t like what they see and decides to forcefully remove the toy from the first child’s lap. No discussion about sharing, no polite request. No maintaining respect and just leaving the poor kid alone. Consider this being that constant person that, despite telling them who you have chosen to vote for and why, they still decide they want your toy. Want to debate you, prove why the decision you have made is stupid by picking apart your every word, post antagonizing Facebook updates because maybe, just maybe, they will turn a few votes.
So, that toy. It is just snatched. The first child begins to wail. Major tears. They have been hurt, disrespected, devalued. It seemed to come out of nowhere. The toy-snatcher may glance the crying child’s way, but they typically bee line for a haven to stow their latest victory. Hiding. How does the hurt child act the next time the toy-stealer comes around? Defensive. Angry. Distrusting. Close-minded about the intentions of the person.
It’s embarrassing to watch people treat each other this way. It’s demoralizing.
So, I was somewhat nervous about going to D.C. immediately before this historic election. I told my husband “I’m so over all of it”. It’s going to happen, let’s get on with it. We need to get on with it.
JetBlue got me there in a jiff. I stepped off the plane and into Ronald Reagan Airport. It’s a pretty place, the ceilings quite intricately designed for an airport, I think. I took an Uber ride to my hotel, where I am told I cannot check in yet but we will be happy to store your carry on. Just see the bellhop. She is standing to the side of her podium, with a solemn face. After I tell her hello and what I am requesting help with, she acknowledges my presence with only movement of her eyes before gesturing to the elderly man next to her. He does all the work, pleasantly. I silently wonder what her job was exactly, besides being rude, and headed outside for a stroll around our nation’s capital. Perhaps, she had her toy snatched, I think.
It is a beautiful day as I step onto the curb. The temperature is a delicious 68 degrees and I can already catch a glimpse of the capitol building as I begin walking. There is traffic, but not much. I walk to the gate that says “must stop here” and admire the architecture. I notice there is a stage being built. The fresh wood remains exposed in its natural beauty. Not yet painted nor corrupt. I move on to the reflecting pool and notice there is a group of ducks in one corner. I am drawn to them, or to the people surrounding them. The ducks are multicolored and quiet, focusing on the task of remaining afloat and looking calm while doing so. Like most Americans, I think.
I walk toward the Washington Monument. Young adults have arranged a kickball league, adorning their matching shirts and yelling “Run it out! They might drop the ball” to their playmate as I walk by. After walking a small portion of the U.S. Botanic Garden, I stop in to the National Museum of the American Indian and eat some food in their cafeteria. I was seated next to a woman about my age and an older man who had a little girl next to him. The woman looked uncomfortable and I wondered why. He started to ask her about her relationship, a long-distance situation that had been a struggle for a few years. “That’s hard” he remarks. She agrees with no elaboration.
I haven’t heard a political word uttered since being here, I think. Quite refreshing, just like this apricot and leek salad sitting in front of me. I will enjoy both.
I walked into the lobby of the hotel that was to host my meeting. Signs pointed me upward, to the escalator. As I approached the floor and stepped off the moving staircase, I am greeted by cardboard cut outs of Hilary Clinton and Donald Trump. Smiling, standing next to each other. A guy is completing a selfie with Hilary. My first reaction was that they were real and I internally panicked. Here they are, standing alone in front of me, smiling. I guess I must be polite and go say hello. I want to run away. Thankfully, they are just cardboard. I wonder who’s hand I would shake first, I think.
The meeting happens, it ends, and we are sent to a lovely reception of wine and hors d’oeuvres. There, we sing happy birthday, as instructed, to one of the meeting attendants. She was all smiles, and appeared genuinely appreciative of the gesture. Again, no politics.
I fly home and catch a bus to my parking lot. The bus driver is petite and pleasant, helping joyfully with my luggage and chomping her gum quite loudly as she drives me to the bus stop. I pay the meter and drive home, happy to be returning to my family.
It was a peaceful twenty-four hours. I heard no anger, no disrespect, no hostility (apart from the bellhop). This sat well with my soul. It told me, no matter the outcome of this election, people will continue living their lives. They will continue to smile at one another, they will continue to play kickball. They will continue to frequent museums and walk outside, enjoying ducks in ponds and beautiful buildings. What is to come in the next couple of weeks will come and it will go. We will have a next President of the United States. We need to respect that. We will still be here.
Let’s be kind to one another. Let us learn. Let us stay open. Let us work together. Let us respect one another’s opinions and rights. Perhaps the toy-snatcher will find a way to give it back, or maybe even share. It wasn’t theirs to begin with but I am hopeful the crying child will find it in their hearts to forgive.
I recently had the opportunity to explore Boston for a work trip. My husband and I decided to make a family vacation out of the event, packing up our 22 month old son and toting him along. I am a relatively new mother, and this strange world often feels foreign and sometimes very alone. Motherhood was never a planned event in my mind. In fact, I graduated college with attempts at feminism. I would tell my friends “I’m never getting married, and if I do, it’ll be when I’m 40. I’m going to travel, be independent, and not worry about men.”
I met the man for me immediately upon my return from college. We got married at 24, after a quick 9 month courtship and subsequent 9 month engagement. It felt completely natural, and I enjoyed the progression without resistance. We did make the conscious decision to enjoy 5 years of marriage before diving head first into the world of pack-n-plays and midnight cries. Throughout this time, we traveled, got to know each other, and focused our efforts on completing graduate school and enjoying young adulthood. I didn’t stop to ponder the question of having children. I never asked if it was an option or an expectation. I just knew that kids were a logical step in the ladder of life – based on what I had observed.
From the moment I sat on a toilet in the wee early AM hours, staring at the pregnancy test that nearly caused me to pass out, it’s been a wild ride. Pregnancy was a slow physical realization that my body, mind, and spirit would no longer independently belong to me. I had selfish thoughts: anger that I could not exercise quite the way I used to, or the fact that I even had to worry about the effects it may cause on my unborn child. Annoyance that everyone around me was enjoying alcoholic drinks on a family vacation when I could not. Sheer surprise at the weird physical changes that accompany our bodies as they work to form a new human. Please do not interpret these feelings as a lack of gratitude for this gift. I sadly realize there are many women who struggle painfully with infertility and these comments may seem extremely insensitive. They are, however, real. And so, I am revealing them. I also had many tender moments with my pregnancy. The most precious part of everyday was lying next to my husband each night, watching my belly excitedly for movement. Feeling those precious hiccups. Observing his growth as the time to meet him drew near. Planning and preparing his nursery, where he would spend his first months of life.
Now he is here, almost two years old. He is running, talking, and testing every boundary. As we walked the streets of Boston, mature parents would remark “Enjoy this time. Don’t blink. It is truly over before you know it.” They share this wisdom with such nostalgia – wistfully – sadly. Their faces reveal a longing for the time with their children that slipped out of their hands. I attempt a promise that yes, we will do our best to soak it in. Then, I am quickly distracted by my son’s attempt to dart across Newbury street traffic and my mind shifts to a familiar mixed emotion of concern and fear.
I was meeting the boys for a quick lunch in between conference sessions. It was a beautiful fall day with a gentle breeze and clear skies. We were sat at a table against the window. Restaurants are a terribly frightening place for me in this season of life. Our current strategy is to distract the child as much as possible, before strapping him in to a highchair when the food comes. We then eat as quickly as possible, dodging flailing arms and food. Hopefully, we have consumed enough calories by the time his patience runs low. He starts whining, not a few bites into our food. “Oh no” I think “Here we go.” He cries, refuses bites of either of our meals. He finally takes one, it is too spicy (Woe to you, Italian meatball!). He tightens his fist, screams in pain. I offer his milk to him and he throws it back at me. More crying. Kicking. Screaming. I start to feel heated, both from the perception of critical eyes upon me but also at my own frustrations.
I see myself at another table, 5 years ago. I’m rolling my eyes and flipping my hair, remarking to my friend “Control your child!” before dismissing this misbehavior and returning to my warm, organized food that has eloquently remained within the perimeter of my plate. Such entitled, confident judgement. That younger me goes back to discussing my plans for the day, including the necessary afternoon nap. The current me is lost, unsure how to climb this new mountain, unsure if I want to. Sure that however I decide to proceed, it will be wrong. We leave the restaurant. I’m feeling like a failure, defeated, exhausted. My son is unscathed. He happily climbs back into his father’s baby hiking apparatus and begins remarking on the city transportation. “A bu(s), a bu(s)!!” I feel drained, as if I have just come back from war. My son is laughing at a raindrop on his head. I don’t understand it, this parenting thing. I do know I’m messing it up, that much I am sure of. My husband senses that I’m shaken and we talk. He tells me I’m too hard on myself, a fair assessment. He tells me that most parents have probably felt this way. I ask “Every day?” and we smile together with a unified understanding that this is only the beginning.
He then said something that caught my attention, which is tough to do whenever in the presence of my child. “You know, if anyone else said the things you are saying about yourself as a mother, I’d punch them in the face!”
I sought multiple confirmations regarding the behavior of my toddler, by the way. That is one way I make myself feel better. The general consensus is: You cannot reason with a 2 year old. I’ll go with that.
Whoa, I thought. My husband is one of the most gentle and patient men I know. I’ve never heard a statement like that come out of his mouth. Taking time to reflect on it, I realized how important him telling me that really was. I am too hard on myself and I stink at remaining mindful of it. Why is it so dang hard for us, as mothers, as women… to just cut ourselves some slack? To relish when we do something RIGHT and stop judging ourselves when we do something wrong? Perhaps because we want so much for our kids. We want them to grow up to be loving souls who are compassionate to other’s needs. We want them to find out what it is that lights them up inside, then chase that dream down fervently. We want them to be a part of the good in this world, and fight courageously against the bad. Perhaps we worry too damn much about what other people think — particularly, other women. Did her child just sign the alphabet? Crap. Half of our “A, B, C’s” pages are ripped out.
Maybe we want them to be their own being, but we also secretly want them to be better versions of ourselves. A reflection of our countless hours of parenting sweat and tears. So tonight, I choose to forgive myself, as God already has many times over. I choose to take a deep breath the next time my son shrieks so loud, it rattles my eardrums. I choose to remain calm in my responses to him, realizing that he is soaking in so much of what I model every day. I choose to forgive myself if I do lose my cool. I choose to forgive the eye rollers of this world, for their time may also come. When it does, I hope that I am able to recognize their trepidation, their difficulties, their fear, and welcome them (and their children) with open arms.
Originally appeared on Elephant Journal 10/19/16 at following link:
One of the main time-consumers of our day, with the exception of deleting countless e-mails, would have to be the daily commute. Whether it be in your own car, the subway, a train, or otherwise, the amount of time we spend waiting to get to where we need to go averages 26 minutes one way for the typical American commuter. This inspires optimistic creativity – to determine the best way to optimize our time on the road in a safe way. It also inspires math calculations – even for a science major.
26 minutes x 2 = 52 minutes per day
52 x 5 days a week = 260 minutes per week
260 x 52 weeks = 13,520 minutes per year
This roughly equals 225 hours or 9.4 days per year of our lives commuting. And that is for the lucky ones only driving 26 minutes each way (JEALOUS!)
Disclaimer: The last time I took a math class was freshmen year of college at Florida State University (GO NOLES). It was a statistics class and I got a B-. The class was early morning with a horrific Monday, Wednesday, Friday schedule. The majority of college kids would tell you this is the absolute worst course schedule ever. Perhaps If I had attended on the regular, the grade outcome may have been different.
Anyway, I digress. The point of the above blurb is: CHECK MY MATH.
In my continual attempts to make my day-to-day activities better, much better, I have paid a great deal of attention to how I can optimize the time spent in the car. Listed below are my findings.
The take away from #1 – take this time that is typically spent in autopilot mode and utilize it to get better at whatever you are striving to improve on.
I don’t have to tell anyone, we live in an overstimulated world. Learning to be mindful of our current situation is a lesson we all can benefit from immensely. While you are sitting on the subway or driving in the car, practice being mindful of those around you. You may surprise yourself. You could potentially avoid many an accident or help a commuting neighbor in need.
Perhaps an equipment-juggling dad dropped his sunglasses in the road while loading his baby into the car at daycare pick up and didn’t notice. You could be that very nice person that ran across the parking lot in the rain to save them for him. (my husband says “thank you, nice stranger”, by the way).
If you chose to do #4, please do so with eyes open on the road. Just sayin’.
So there you have it. 5 simple ways to improve your commute by improving yourself. It sounds like a win against the road to me. As you incorporate these practices into your daily routine with your own individual tweaks, it will truly help you optimize your time on the road in a safe and positive way.
Here’s to a Better. Much Better. Drive!
Nobody wants to think about it but the vast majority of us WILL require a hospitalization at some point in our lives. Maybe it is a quick day stay for toe surgery or a colonoscopy. Maybe the only time you’ve ever been a patient in the hospital was to have a baby and go home 48 hours later. Typically, if you are very blessed, being admitted to a hospital system is an exception to the rule. Our goal is to stay out of there!
For many, this is a far more complex challenge. People live every day with chronic conditions — meaning, they don’t go away. They aren’t cured. Often times, these conditions flare up or cause infections, severe pain, complications that must be addressed and stabilized in the hospital.
We also get into accidents. Our kids cut their fingers, bonk their heads. We injure ourselves performing one of those “simple” do it yourself projects we see on Pinterest (damn you, mountable, rustic bird house!!)
This means — GULP — we must seek medical care. And when we do, a massive chain of events spiral into action before we even realize what is happening (because we are the ones injured, after all). I will tell you as quickly as the next provider, our healthcare system is far from perfect.
It is flawed, BUSY, complex, confusing, frustrating. Is it one of the better ones in terms of patient care in the world? I think so. Would I prefer to be treated here compared to many other countries? Absolutely. But, as you are well aware, we have our issues.
*COUGH* Personal accountability *COUGH* Major abuse of the system *COUGH* People with jobs paying a whole lot more for healthcare than those that do not work or “can’t work”.
Sorry, let me clear my throat. I caught my child’s cold and a symptom of it is digression.
Anyway, one of the most important actions you can take when accessing our healthcare system is:
Bring someone who loves you to the hospital.
Below are my observations:
You can’t retain everything. You only have one head. There is a dump truck full of information that gets unloaded onto you when you receive a diagnosis, discharge instructions, a new medication. One cannot possibly absorb it all in the midst of recovering from an illness or injury. Your brain is already working feverishly to recover from the stress of sickness.
You won’t remember the whole story. Or, you may not choose to tell it. Have you experienced what I like to call the healthcare version of “Ask 20 Questions”? It’s more like “20 Providers Ask the Same Question”.
“What brought you to the hospital?” rolls into a complete interview of many components that includes your recent history, full medical and surgical history, social history, family history, etc. Your ability to retain and regurgitate these crucial pieces to your diagnosis puzzle is again compromised by the fact that you don’t feel well. Your brain is again working overtime trying to heal. You inevitably will not remember everything. Somebody who knows you and your health history well is EXTREMELY valuable in filling in those interview holes.
Also, sometimes we don’t reveal the whole story for various reasons. If your loved one knows something valuable in helping to treat you, it should be communicated. Withholding information truly hurts the patient more than anyone.
You want someone there, looking out for you. As I stated above, the healthcare system has its flaws. It is not without error. Shoot — when I broke my hip a number of years ago and crutched in to my nursing unit to hand my nurse manager proof of fracture, she immediately sent me down to the emergency room to get it further investigated. (Whether or not that was out of true concern or disbelief that a 23 year old fractured her hip, one cannot say, but I have my suspicions). Once they triaged me and made me put on the awful green gown, I was taken for x-rays. 15 minutes later, a different employee attempted to take me for the SAME SET of x-rays.
Let’s avoid the # of times we shoot electromagnetic radiation to my pelvic region, shall we? You will be answering to mama if my fertility is affected.
Granted, this is a smaller example of a “near miss” in the medical world. However, I provide it here to explain that they happen in all forms, to all individuals. No, nurses, doctors, therapists, etc. are not immune to it. Don’t worry healthcare friends, I am not about to break out the swiss cheese effect slides.
This point is of utter importance the older and more absent-minded (or crazier, whichever you prefer) we get. Knowing exactly what medications the patient is on is an absolute requirement to receive the appropriate care. I recently cared for an elderly patient who was being given 4 different blood pressure medications during her hospitalization. Her pressure plummeted and we didn’t know why… until her daughter revealed that she was actually only taking 2 of the 4 that were on her “current medication” list. Not good…and definitely not helpful for a speedy recovery and discharge.
Sidenote: There are helpful apps such as The Pill Monitor that help keep track of your current medications, dosage timing, full list, etc.
Nobody knows you like your family and friends. If you start behaving in a concerning way, 9 times out of 10 — your loved one will recognize it before any staff member will. Simply because THEY KNOW YOU like none other. Someone being alert and in tune with your progression or decline for the duration of your hospitalization is only going to improve your outcome. Many a life have been saved by a patient’s family activating the Rapid Response Team in a timely manner.
You need the support. The hospital is not a fun place. We try to make you as comfortable as possible. The food has come a long way over the years (or not..depending on who you talk to). It’s still no fun to be there. You need the love of your people to heal. Consistent patient advocates are always preferred but shift work among family and friends is usually a requirement (what..you have lives?).
As a provider in the hospital — I personally see the direct effects of the above on a patient’s experience. Clear communication is the cornerstone here. It makes for a better, much better, outcome.
Stay well, friends.
Sometimes I wonder if our grandparents felt the way we do in this generation. Does anyone ever feel like they have “gotten ahead”? — If so, please share your secret. Seriously.
My late maternal grandmother (God rest her soul), Bonnie, articulated our trending lifestyle dilemma so well: “Nobody has time for anything anymore”. What did she mean by that?
Time to make dinner?
Time to walk across the street and chat with the neighbor?
Time to open our bibles?
Time to play with our families outdoors?
As a woman, I feel I place a significant emphasis on attempting to multitask the various facets of my life. Be a good Christ-follower. Be a good wife. Be a good mother. Be a good daughter / sister / friend. Contribute to the household income. Contribute to the world. Take care of my patients. Keep the house (semi) reasonable. Do my best to keep up with family and friends.
I fall short. I fall short often.
The frustrations are palpable when I attempt specific mindfulness to appreciating a family member for something kind they have done, attempting to spend a few precious moments with a few precious individuals — all the while realizing I have inadvertently hurt another’s feelings all in the same evening.
Sometimes, I think so many of us feel we just can’t get ahead. Can’t win. Can’t get it all aligned. Our mental fatigue overwhelms our attentiveness and we don’t always foresee issues we could have avoided.
Thank God he has never expected that from us. He came, knowing every single one of us are sinners. He came knowing how badly we needed his love. He came to show us the way, the truth, the life is through him. (John 14:6). He knows we ALL have shortcomings.
Hurts. Disappointments. Tempers. Anger. Jealousy. Laziness. Greed. Guilt. Trespasses. Grudges. Pride.
He came to love us, knowing we are all sinners, and showed us the way to be forgiven for our sins.
So maybe tonight, and likely every day of my life, I didn’t please everyone. That will never happen. However, the Lord gives me strength to start anew tomorrow, to know that his promises ring true forever. I don’t know him as well as I want to, but tonight feels like progress.
Better, much better. Not perfect by any means.. but better. Did I please everyone? No. Did I please him? I hope so.
In the wake of the The View commentary outrage, I curiously ventured over to Google to browse recent chatter about nursing. For those of you who do not recall or somehow did not hear by word of mouth, nurses across the country were quite distraught over the comments made about a Miss America contestant during her talent show segment.
The conversation went something like this:
Miss Colorado got on stage, in GASP, her scrubs.
Wearing a DOCTOR’S stethoscope.
…and to our horror, began talking about caring for a patient.
Within minutes, The View’s Facebook page was blasted with angry nurses, nursing assistants, nurse practitioners, nurse anesthetists, paramedics, physical therapists, physician assistants, and doctors (pardon me if I missed anyone — we appreciate the support!) commenting on the ignorance of their statements.
Movements such as “Show Me Your Stethoscope” (which is 781K strong and growing) erupted in titanic proportions on Facebook. Thousands of selfies with stethoscopes appeared. One ER physician posted a hilarious picture of at least 25 confiscated “doctor’s stethoscopes” from his RN colleagues. Another doctor wrote a detailed explanation about the importance of each RN involved in a surgical patient’s experience at the hospital.
…Which then caused the hosts of the show to somewhat forcefully apologize to all of those in the nursing profession the next day. Allegedly. Many did not take kindly to the gesture. I think because it was quite authentically not genuine. And I think the majority of the general population wonders:
WHAT IS THE BIG DANG DEAL?
What an intriguing question. What IS the big deal? Why are nurses so ANGRY? I have felt the anger myself many times over and it is extremely difficult to articulate at times.
Bingo. In my attempts to search for public answers to THAT question following this talk show calamity, Google revealed to me the top 5 questions the general public asks them every day about nurses.
The following image is a photo of the recommendations Google gave to me, based on popularity.
Um…Ouch. Granted, people are more likely to search the internet for sympathy when upset with an experience. It’s like when we receive very poor customer service at the local auto repair shop, so we tell the world not to go there. It makes sense that searches for bad nursing would be more common than what actually happens with significantly more commonality every day:
A nurse takes amazing, attentive care of their patient, often saves their lives, and they go home safely. Nah. I’m not googling “Why was my nurse so amazing today?” — Why not? Because dude. Our brains default to the answer…because that’s their job? Plus, I’m busy breaking free of superbug zone and cruising in to the local Starbucks for a real java fix. Holler on the early discharge!
With further curiosity, tonight I have googled “Why are doctors…”
Hmm. First of all, sorry to hear there is a trend of death among our MD friends. That’s not cool and I pray that has abated! Secondly, patients do comment, and comment often, about the attractiveness of their physician. I blame McDreamy. ..and the fact that MDs are sugar daddies / mamas.
However, there is much one can gather by these two different but very relative searches. It is apparent that the representation of nursing to our country is negative, which is beyond discouraging for so many reasons.
The career of nursing is incredibly demanding and requires fierce resolve to pursue. We need to continue the conversation of reinstating respect for this profession and uplift our nurses that are doing such a dang good job.
Side note: Please think twice before asking your family member’s nurse for a beverage. They have many important responsibilities that fill their 12+ hour shift — that of which are increasingly being bogged down in documentation. Giving your nurse optimal time to provide bedside care will ensure the best outcome for the patient. I know a plethora of nurses that would gladly assist you with this request simply because they are kind, but please do not abuse that knowledge as an excuse to ask. Plus, it’s super healthy of you to walk downstairs to grab a drink, and provides family members with a much needed breather at times.
Hey, this is a small example of a nursing frustration. But, it is a start!
Healthcare friends — thoughts?